Thursday, December 29, 2011

So Derby has been going really great.  I love the people I work with and I do a damn good job.  If I haven't mentioned (and I do'nt know if I have because I'm too lazy to look) I volunteered to help with Derby.  I've been going to scrimmages and learning different helpful positions and communication.  It's awesome.

I would like to skate more.  A plan has been devised to accomplish that goal, but it won't be implemented until next week.

It would be really amazing to live above a coffee shop.  All that good smelly coffee fog covering every surface of your life.  Caffeine overdose by inhaling.  Yum.

Work Christmas Party tonight.  I'm excited.  Excited enough to buy a new dress.  A dress I'm probably only going to wear this one time that shows a little too much boobage but I'm going to wear it anyway because it was $12.  Plus, my boobs have been lookin' good lately.  And if I distract people from my legs (which it's my least favorite "feature") mission accomplished.

Christmas has been good to me.  I'm over caffeinated as a result.  My beautiful and amazing niece headbutted me in the jaw which TOTALLY sucked.  Tears my have been shed.  I'll never tell.  Ok, yeah, I had to go into the bathroom for a minute to compose right during present opening.  That. Hurt.

And that was a random enough post to make me feel disappointed about my lack of blogging.  I swear I used to be good at it.  But I also used to go out and party every night.  So I had things to say.  Even that isn't true.  I have things to say.  I'm just not as good as I used to be at getting them on paper.  Err. Screen.  Routine!  That's what's missing.  And I'm afraid it's not going to develop on it's own.  I struggle with self discipline.  Ha! New Year's thingy.

Friday, December 9, 2011

I am so damn sad today.  And it sucks because I was stupid happy just yesterday.  So I'm sad because things were going so well and then they went to crap.

Gentleman Caller and I have been doing really, REALLY great.  A couple days ago we decorated the Christmas tree and we listened to holidays songs while doing so.  It was so awesome.  Plus he bought me a present early enough that he had to wrap it and put it under the tree.  I don't think that has ever happened.  It was super cool.

And then last night we got into a huge fight about victim-blaming.

Basically, he's a member of the feminist women are man-haters and are too sensitive.  I'm not in that group.  We've had some fights before, but last night just sucked.  He wouldn't listen to anything I said but name called anyway.  Seriously, it was "I'm not listening to what you're going to say because you're being stupid".  It was so horrible.  When he finally listened to what I was saying line-by-line, he agreed with it.  But not in the context we were discussing (read: yelling) so that means I'm moronic.  What?

I stopped talking to him. I'm not one who can just forget immediately, while he can just move on. He left late for work because he wanted to try and make up, but he sees that he did nothing wrong and I'm stuck on his horrible fighting tactics.  We're probably not going to talk about it again because there is no resolving.

And it sucks so much.

In other horrible news, one of his friends is freaking out because life is not all about getting what you deserve.  He's been saying really mean things to his family and friends.  I've been emailing with him, but he suddenly went radio silent.  Which is an improvement over him lashing out at his friends for daring to be happy, but still not the best.  I can't do anything about it, but I'm still sad.

I had horrible dreams last night.  In one that lasted FOREVER, GC and I were arguing violently.  Do I remember the subject, no.  Can I guess?  Maybe.

And in the second one, I was in a horrible mood.  HORRIBLE.  And my sister shows up to my apartment with my niece.  I grab my niece's hand and we start walking up the stairs when my sister starts messing with my sandal so I can't really walk upstairs normally and start to fall.  So my niece falls and almost slips in between the steps so she'd fall basically a full story into the basement steps below.  My sister caught her by the arm, but it was a near thing and really horrible.

Just a perfect set up for a bad day.